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Dec. 27th, 2009 | 02:13 am

i have worked things out with the ladybug.
but she is off in the land down under for another 5 weeks.

not good.

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Nov. 2nd, 2009 | 12:31 pm

cute as can be, but too moral for me.
oh how will i work this one out ladybug

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Oct. 10th, 2009 | 11:47 pm

lol holy fuck. this girl is RIDICULOUS. hey, i wanna see you more than once a week... the only answer i want to hear, 'okay ill try to see you more'... the only answer i get.. A BIG FUCKIN ARGUMENT. jesus fucking christ. dating for 2 weeks, seen you 3 times. WTF IS THAT. twice because you dont want to be a third wheel so you tell me to come over and once because you have a party and apparently feel obligated to invite me than you dont even talk to me the whole fuckin night. UGHHHHHHHHHH. you know for once i feel like im an awesome boyfriend, and for me to say that is really something.


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Oct. 2nd, 2009 | 08:03 pm
mood: down

i had planned on spending today with my girlfriend. now i am sitting at my apt by myself all day and feeling pretty down. its been a couple days and i'm waiting for her to want to see me... thats all.

maybe tomorrow...

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Feb. 5th, 2009 | 05:06 pm

i miss you

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Oct. 25th, 2008 | 01:50 am

nevermind my last post,

goodbye fair maiden.

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i really am torn

Oct. 24th, 2008 | 07:39 pm


i really do not want this girl in my life. on the other hand i really do.
i really will never ever be with her again.
i really do just want to be friends.
i really know that isnt something easy to do.
i really wish my friends would not hang out with her.
i really wish she wouldnt tell my friends to hang out with her.
i really recognize our connection, but thats not enough.
i really am not forgiving.
i really hate this situation.
i really hate feeling obligation.
i really just need like a year off.
i really just need someone new in my life.


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press play

Oct. 10th, 2008 | 10:23 pm

People can surprise you. This may sound mean or hurtful but please understand that I don't mean for it to be in the slightest.

sometimes people like to live their very own fantasy life that they like to control and manipulate. and these people just want to seem so great to each and every person. they want to impress everyone, they want to be liked by everyone, they want to be wanted by everyone. these people will do whatever it takes to feel this way. well, sometimes that involves lying to those closest to you, and sometimes it involves sleeping around.

now when these people get close to you, you start to notice these sorts of things. kind of by how they tell you some crazy shit about their close friends, or how they talk a lot of shit, etc. etc. you get what im saying. and you may think to yourself, 'well hey, at least im not the one their doing this to!' but in this assumption you are wrong.

now, these people have tons of friends, and they are quite good at making friends! especially given their nature to please people to their face. but oh dear, the things that go on behind their back. well thats just another story.

as for the love life of these people, hey thats not a problem. i mean sure maybe they have someone close to them.. but thats semi-irrelevant, although it does come in handy when its time for making excuses. but mostly it consists of flaunting and woo-ing and playing the ignorant "oh he likes me?" card. one by one each fish can be easily reeled in. one by one these people get their satisfaction.

and now we look on to the future. once one of these people has been discovered! oh what an event! now its time to change! the time is now! this is the hour! i promise! they all of a sudden realize everything horrible that theyve done and they just want to repent! oh my closest friends i love you and im so sorry! whatever was i thinking!

and one by one they accept them again. because i mean, theres just so much history, or i just know them so well, or i know the REAL them. and these people will once again get their way, and return to their old ways.

Oh, and as for me? well, now you can just press repeat about 3 times.

how about no, how about one person ends the little charade.

its not hurting anyone, because there is no loss. theres a new fish lined up, waiting to be manipulated and fucked. he's already discovered the brevity of her modesty.

i just feel bad for him, really. and the rest of you fish are still caught on same line - "im sorry, how can i fix it?"

the end.

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Aug. 8th, 2008 | 08:24 am

im going to Las Vegas saturday.

if i dont return, i love you all.

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Jul. 22nd, 2008 | 10:42 pm

i thought i would type in this and make an update, since i never do.
i work every day this week, except saturday. its cool though. gives me somethin to do.
my hair is different again. i guess its emo?
i feel pretty detached from people.
and i cant wait for aug 22.
oh, and aug 9.

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